I attended FirstNLR from the time I was a small child into my young adulthood. I was considered and known as one of Rod’s favorites. I grew up in the ministries, was an intern and on staff at one point.
From a young age, I experienced bullying and belittling at his hand. One time stands out as a preteen girl (12yo) when he continuously messed up my hair over and over to the point it made me cry. All while he laughed that it made me cry. When I was older, I was one of the girls who rode with him to a youth camp one year. We weren’t allowed to be on our phones the entire ride. He had seat warmers in his truck, and he kept turning them on (in summer time) to make me “feel like I peed my pants”. If I turned it off, he turned it back on. Over and over until I gave in rode with them on for a while.
His control and manipulation stand out the most over my time there. He had plans for me to be a pastor on his staff one day and he orchestrated many things in my life to help make that a reality. We met in his office on several occasions, just the two of us, to discuss my shortcomings and for him to speak into my spiritual development. My flexibility was, to him, my biggest weakness. He felt I needed to learn to let go of my plans when things changed. Looking back, it seemed more that he wanted me to be okay with him controlling my plans than sticking with the plans I had.
Physically, I never experienced anything to the degree that is mentioned in the lawsuit. However, I have many pictures with him not normal for a pastor to take with young girls. He also would always greet me with a hug and a kiss on my forehead. As a kid, I didn’t think much of it. However, as I got older it made me more uncomfortable but I didn’t feel like I could speak up. After I left the church, I would visit on occasions and he would still greet me this way as a married adult. It is one of the reasons I stopped visiting or avoided seeing him if I did.
Toward, the end of my time at the church, I started to see the control and spiritual abuse. I was pushing back on more. He specifically didn’t like how my life was going in terms of my relationship with my boyfriend as it was becoming more serious and meant a possibility of me leaving the church. He tried to used my parents, other staff members, and trusted mentors to try to get me to end my relationship. My parents never approached me with it because they did not understand his concerns. My last year there was a constant battle with him over his infatuation with my relationship that didn’t make any sense. Unfortunately, these are just a few of the stories I have of him and the toxic culture as a whole that he built within the staff.